it’s weird the night i don’t end up crying …..
i’m kinda anxious and sad,why¿?¿ i don’t know but the past few days i’ve had some very bad days,i’ve been feeling liek shit like i was nothing and i think i’m still carrying that even though it will be eventually gone,it’s still there and maybe will be for a few days,the problem of why i’ve felt bad the past few days,maybe isolation,not like of being alone becuase in general i like to be alone(like listening to music or doing whatever) but i don’t like to feel aone,shitty and such (let’s be honest,who likes that¿?¿),i’ve felt really bad some days as some of you probably have seen in here but however i really try to be happy and distract myself,one of the other issues i’ve had the past few days is the feeling of not being quite accepted and by that i mean that it felt like everyone was a stranger and it kinda still does,i really don’t know why thaty happens but ti always does or it normally does when everyone is busy and can’t talk at all which is a thing i understand.
I know probably what i though during those days is wrong,i’m sure most of it is and then again there was my mind,what if you’re not wrong and somehow they began hating you¿?¿ what if they didn’t want to talk with you anymore¿?¿ what if all of that is right¿?¿ if it had been for real,i sure would have lost it all,i really would have been so damn depressed ntohign could have made me happy,absolutely nothing and that really scares me becauswe when you knwo nothing will make you happy if a certain thing happens it can’t be any good and you end up obsessed with that idea,slowly posioning your mind,more and more until you begin to believe it,believe it’s true,i don’t know btu i guess some of you might know that feel but oh well
"Found one of my old journals from right around the time we were heading out on tour with NFG in the UK early 2008. I started reading it and couldn’t help but cry a little bit, because that person was really confused and very lost, and as it went on, the person behind the pen seemed to get a little bit stronger… That part felt good. It was the reminder I needed that right now I’m as strong as ever. There really isn’t a point to telling you all of this, except maybe I want to thank you, because you are a constant reminder that I’m not as lost as I once was.”
(Source: haylesbian, via fuckyeahhayleywilliams)
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